During my awakening, there had been many times that I felt the need to write a blog as a way to share and tell my story but it never came through. I wondered why I blocked or ignored that feeling? I would start then I’d just let it go, give up on the idea.. “What a ridiculous notion” I’d say to myself, I am not even a writer… Hell! English is not even my first language.
How easily I would talk myself out of it.
Recently, I have been getting the same feeling, like a reassurance telling me to not be afraid and just do it.
This time I am listening, I am not afraid, I am trusting my voice and the more I listen the stronger the vibration feels. So, just like that.. in sync with my feelings my daughter started writing more and more, khiara is 7 years old, her imagination is so beautiful and she has always been so honest and open about what she feels. Her views on life shook me out of a deep sleep, both her and my son Tykel who is 14 years old have a huge role in bringing me back to my natural essence, reminding me of why I am here and to live free.
For now here is an old post I found on Blogger, this is dated 23/05/2011 and it was the only post I did on this blog…
Blogger post 23/05/2011
“Mankind has come a long way in the last few centuries, we live alongside many different organisms and have established ourselves as the dominant species: stronger, smarter and more adaptable. But despite all of that and not to mention the advanced technology we SO rely on today, are we really that much different from the “Weaker” species?
Have you ever found yourself walking home, after a long day at work? Well, I have and here I was walking through a busy common on a lovely summer’s evening. Absorbing the environment around me: Cricket team on the right doing their thing which I never get, joggers on the long stretch looking composed and slightly crazy (I like to watch people run..it makes me wonder what I look like when I am running ), frisbees flying all around with grown henche men chasing after them. In the distance, I can still see the busy traffic of the rush hour bustling through the corner of the Common but by this stage the atmosphere around has instantly rubbed off on me, long has the stress lifted and I am as relaxed as the long grass under my feet… Well, that is until I felt a spasm run through my spine and I stopped in a frenzy all at the sight of an over grown and excited Boxer running towards me (yes, the dog).
At that moment I am just reacting on what I visualise, my senses have all left me but one; Sight, the only one of our senses that can deceive us a million times over, because what I saw was danger (usually happens when I see big dogs and spiders). I completely dismissed the environment and the reason behind this image I am staring at, the Dog of course runs passed me (laughing probably) and his owner gives me the Look which says (crazy cat lover), but can I really help control the reaction I get every time I am presented with this scene?
I don’t think I can until I am convinced that big dogs are not a threat, and until then my natural instincts will take over “dangerous” situations like this.
As a little girl, I was always told to compose myself because animals can sense fear and will attack. And of course that didn’t help, because if dogs can smell my fear why on earth would they attack? That just convinced me that my fear for these domesticated creatures is simply a survival skill.
But I recently discovered that although it is true that animals sense fear, dogs will react to it differently. Let’s say the dog is a family pet so when out in a crowd this dog will smell the person giving off the stress hormone through sweating.
See the person hesitate and the awkward body language.
Hear the heart beat and blood pressure rise.
The next step is to approach for further investigation, so basically by reacting to the sight of a beast (OK ok a harmless house pet) I am just setting myself up for its attention.
All I really need to do is realise that we are not that much different from our fellow pets, we too follow the same pattern the dog uses to isolate an individual in the crowd and in the same exact order: Smell, Sight, Sound and finally Touch.
Of course we are not as sophisticated as our “weaker” species for we cannot hear the heart beat of a fellow commuter (unless you are a character out of a Stephenie Meyer book) nor can we identify the scents we pick up off each other.
All of our senses put together are what helps us survive and evolve as the dominant species. Of course, we may not be aware of these wonderful senses but they are there and contrary to the belief of first impressions, it is not all based on the image we portray and what we see.” ~end ~
It is such a refreshing and wonderful insight to be able to look back at our own observations in life. I would recommend for you to go ahead and share, in a diary or a blog just open up and share whatever you want. Because you see ; whenever you share an observation you’re putting it out there for the universe to process and send it back to you in a clear and better understandable version… fast forward 3 years since I made that observation and I feel like I am light years ahead, I have realised so much more about myself and what I am gifted with and capable of, it has led me to turn my gift into a life style, I am healing myself everyday with every new experience I choose to draw towards me, I am overcoming my fears and so much more simply by aligning myself and training my thoughts. I advise you: don’t be afraid of who you are. In this exact moment you are the most perfect being you will ever be, instead of talking yourself out of doing things just relax and be in this moment. Be in the moment, in the NOW.
To your Devine success.